Yeah, I know you’re a Fanbro and all that I just

hold on, let me go public with something here I think everyone needs to know

I don’t just have trouble making friends, I have trouble keeping track of people in general. I literally don’t have room in my head for a social circle of more that a dozen or so people at a time, as I’ve had memory diluting brain damage since I was a little kid. Like, I can stretch the limit a bit for online buddies, but there comes a point where I honestly won’t even try to befriend people anymore unless I feel like I can actually connect with them on an emotional level and I NEED that friendship in my life.

I don’t do it to be mean or elitist of prickish, and I hate myself for having to do it in the first place more than I honestly expect anyone else to hate me for it, but I can’t do anything about it and it frustrates me so much.

And now that I’ve gone public with this, I’m afraid people are going to think that they need to prove themselves worthy friends, or start fearing that they’ll be replaced or try to force their way into friendship with me. I regularly get messages from people asking if we’re friends already, I don’t think I can take any more of that.